Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Christmas

Christmas is coming. Like it or not! Ready or Not! Here it comes! It's just six days away. Christmas in my family has always been a HUGE affair. I know I have blogged about it in the past, but I don't feel like searching my archives to find it again, so... I'll give you a shortened version of the "Michele" Christmas. When I was a little girl, I started Christmas morning around 4:30am, then off to my mother's parents by 6:30, then off to my mother's father's parents by 8:30am, then off to my mother's mother's parents by 10:00am, then off to my mother's parents again by 11:30 to eat lunch at 12:00. Then at 1:30, off to my father's parents then by 4:00 back to my mother's parents for supper. Since I have been an adult, the process has basically stayed the same with only a few minor changes as family members have passed away. My son starts his Christmas off at his grandma's house, then off to my grandparents house by 8:00 and then off to his dad's parents house in the afternoon. Well, this year, things are going to stay the same, but they are different. My grandparents are dead. I won't be spending Christmas with them this year, this year, they are spending Christmas in heaven. This makes me both happy and sad. I'm selfish, and I want them here. I don't want to see the sadness in my son's eyes - I don't want to see the sorry in my mother's eyes. I don't want to FEEL the hurt... I'd really rather skip Christmas this year... but I guess that's not a real option. Darn it! So, until then, I'll try very hard not to be a scrooge, and I will do my best to put this smile on my face and wish you the happiest of holidays. I hope yours is absolutely wonderful!

2 comments:

jumpinginpuddles said...

sounds umm exhausting, we have no family to go see so we have it at home and then later on at our apstors and wifes hosue now thats a blast.

Raven said...

If you have the money for a hand full of Celexa and Ambien, skipping Christmas is always an option. At least, keeping myself comatose till after New Years was certainly my plan A. :)